Wednesday, May 18, 2005 - :( : i think i did,-THE- hardest thing i ever had to do in my life. well. mebb tt THE hardest but it definately was one of the hardest. i decided to drop out of rapture. i noe i noe...ppl r gg 2 start to say im irresponsible...im fickled minded...but seriously speaking, this thought has been on me mind 4 a looong time. i left rapture not bcus i wana get the dance society into trouble. but rather, i hv been called out of it by God. (i can almost hear some ppl scoffing)

yes. God called me out of dance. ever since syf. but i failed to obey. so 4 the past few weeks, i hv been in limbo whether or not to continue wif rapture or drop out of it. it wasnt easy making the desicion, until pastor ben n lilian spoke to me. n after being convicted by the Spirit tt i realised dance was replacing God as the centre of my life. ever since i joined dance, i nv regretted finding this new passion. in fact, i think its something i want to do 4 as long as im able to. but i cannot dance 4 the world n i cannot dance to the world. only God. for if i yoke with the world long enuff, i bcom a part of it. tis true indeed.

truth be told, im beyond sad. im jus...lost. given the fact tt i cant dance, except 4 the syf (which i really like). i want to dance new stuff...not old thingys like S.A.X which we most prob done bout >6 times liao... so too all those wondering y i pulled out of rapture, i jus stated it. God being my witness. Amen...

C.K blogged at 6:10 AM