Tuesday, May 03, 2005 - la la. : 2dae did not start ok 4 me. first, i didn't do my napfa. i noe i was suppose 2 do it todae, but i jus cldnt summon tt energy. or conviction. so my pe told me tt i can wait till i get my confirmed pes status then take napfa if need b. hai.. God's will lah... cant b helped. perhaps He doesnt want me 2 take it yet. ah well. i doubt i wld hv done as well as i wld hv liked. pe teacher told me 2 run 3 rds n i did, and my legs jus felt so darn heavy. n somehow, i jus noe it has something to do wif yday's jumping. hai...

n i had bio n chem test todae. im seriously contemplating to drop bio. its so heavy as a subject! whenever i think studying 4 block test 2, n i think bout wat i hv 2 do 4 bio, my brain jus melts. n poof. there goes my desire n sudden blue moonish drive to study. on top of tt, i got maths test 2molo. perm n combi n probability, of which i nv liked since sec 4. i really really REALLY dnt want 2 fail this test, given tt i havent passed a math's test so far. hai. better start studying.

listenin to Vitamin C's song: Graduation. this song brings back maaaany memories... pleasant n painful alike... heh heh.. well i found this song jus only when i saw this nondescript cd lying on my com table. so i picked it up n played it, n when i heard the song, the first thing (or person) tt came to my mind was Norwyn. he was a a gd fren of mine back in sec sch. but, i dnt really think ill b seeing 4 quite sometime..for the simple fact tt he commited suicide in 2003. yups. u didnt read it wrg. i cld still remember when i heard this song after his death, i was tearing like mad. well, it was one of his favourite songs besides lady marmalade. n i tried sooo hard not to cry. haha... well. sometimes, there r some ppl whom u jus will not omit frm memory, n some emotions tt u cant forget no matter how hard u try....

n quite ironically, it was Norwyn's passing tt brought me back to the Lord. i backslided like mad back then n got into witchcraft n yade yade... sometimes, i wonder if his passing has brought him to a better place or somewhere which i cannot bear to imagine. hai...

C.K blogged at 3:05 AM