Saturday, May 07, 2005 - *ponders*... : sometimes i wonder if ill ever succeed in it. ive tried so hard n so much. but theres only so much tt i can do. i try n try to change it and sometimes its gd, but more often than not, somehow or another, it jus changes back to wat it was. so much 4 trying. ive failed so many times n sometimes i really wonder if im even suppose to succeed in it. sometimes its the things tt i do, n i noe it. but i cant seem to forsee the consequences even though i practically got my eyes peeled 4 it. but i nv see it coming, not until it hits me full in the face. even then, sometimes, i dnt even noe wat i did when it hits me.

God. pls. 4 me, change it. move in ways incomprehensible to me n jus change it. im tired of gg thru the things tt im gg thru, n i dnt want to be stuck here until i meet u.

C.K blogged at 8:34 AM