Thursday, June 23, 2005 - - : well. i didnt expect it to be easy. and it wasnt. well, Mr. Drug Dealer n 'god', it doesnt matter what you say. i still love both of you! :D some people thinks it makes no sense; my desicion. they feel that my obeying God and leaving dance at this time is irresponsible. which i wont deny. it IS irresponsible. but ultimately, my responsibility and accountability is to God first and foremost. some people say that God would never advocate inconveniencing others. well, before you say that, read the following verses.

The Calling of the First Disciples

18As Jesus was walking beside the Sea of Galilee, he saw two brothers, Simon called Peter and his brother Andrew. They were casting a net into the lake, for they were fishermen. 19"Come, follow me," Jesus said, "and I will make you fishers of men." 20At once they left their nets and followed him. 21Going on from there, he saw two other brothers, James son of Zebedee and his brother John. They were in a boat with their father Zebedee, preparing their nets. Jesus called them, 22and immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him. (Matthew 4:18-22)

when Jesus called for James and John, they left -immediately-. leaving behind their father to fish by himself. responsibility? of course they had a responsibility to their father, but ultimately, their responsibility was to being a disciple of Christ. another verse.

The Cost of Following Jesus

18When Jesus saw the crowd around him, he gave orders to cross to the other side of the lake. 19Then a teacher of the law came to him and said, "Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go." 20Jesus replied, "Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lay his head." 21Another disciple said to him, "Lord, first let me go and bury my father." 22But Jesus told him, "Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead." (Matthew 8:18-22)

that disciple had a very big responsibility to bury his father. but yet, the Lord called for him to leave the burial to others and follow Him.

My actions are not based on my own heart. my actions are based on prayer and on God's Word. some people think that i am doing this by my own desire and using God as a cover. well, im not.
well, if u wana hear the response to my desicion from another point of view entirely, click here. It leads to my church forum.


~Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. Galations 1:10~

C.K blogged at 8:10 PM