Saturday, December 31, 2005 - The End and The Beginning. : WOOOOOOSH!!!!

And that it was like for me, this whole year. Just like that occasional blast of wind from nowhere, that ephemeral flame flickering upon the wick of a candlestick.

And now here i am, sitting here at my computer, with less than an hour before this year ends, thus closing a small, yet imeasurably significant chapter of my life.

I can still remember 2 years ago, where i sat right before this very computer, chatting with my secondary school classmates with bittersweet memories of my 4 years in Saint Andrew's Secondary School... And i remember closing that chapter of my life with much angst, nostalgia for a life barely gone and a great deal of hope for the life to come.

Yet somehow or another, for some reason that only God knows, the following chapter was but a shade lighter than my 4 years in secondary school.

Junior college will most probably be the fastest educational stint i will ever experience. Right now, if you ask me to recall good memories of JC, i can only name a handful. I will never, EVER forget my time when i was participating in the Pre-University Seminar. It was truly a gift that only God could give.

The 2 years in JC were truly years of wrestling with God. I struggled to give up secular music, and above all, secular dance. It was truly one of the hardest and most painful decision i ever had to make, but its a sacrifice i willingly give to Him.

In these 2 years, my faith was stretched to its limit. From one who would doubt that God could cure a simple flu, to one who believes that God can make the lame walk again. From one who believed that only a handful of people could be saved, to one who believes that everyone and ANYONE can be saved.

I was challenged by God over and over again, disciplined in more occasions than one, sanctified by faith in more areas than one, and tested to my limits. And truth be told, im still be tested and moulded by God. Looking back in this year, i cannot help but say that God has been good to me. Very good. Too good for a person like me, one who broke His heart over and over again.

In this year alone, i was given the privellege to witness the beginning of the outpouring of His Spirit upon His people, namely during Camp Accelerate. I was given the blessings of God to reach out to my parents, and i was given the gift that every Christian youths would want - the salvation of their parents.

And now God has fulfilled His promise to me through His Word, that all of my household would be saved. And in saving my parents, God proved to me that there is NOBODY that cannot be saved. Not even a staunch atheist, the hardest of hearts or the most apathetic of souls.

While i sit here reflecting on the year that is passing and ending in mere moments, i can't help but wonder what lies ahead. In 5 days time, i will be opening another chapter of my life, one that will either make or break my walk with God. But i know that He is always and ever faithful. And for that reason i will never let go, even if my life comes crumbling down around me.


C.K blogged at 7:14 AM