Sunday, December 18, 2005 - thinking waiting seeing thinking waiting seeing thinking waiting... : i apologize to all my loyal readers for the lack of updates.

HA.

as if i got loyal readers liddat. but i must assuage my ego, so indulge me...

my sundays are becoming sooo routine. seriously.

first, i go to church, then i go with my parents for lunch, then we resist futilely before we shop guiltlessly, then we go home in a cab because we can't stand all the impolite, rude, kiasu (read: scared to lose), kiasee (read: scared to die), inconsiderate and oafish people in the MRT train.

of course that is not to say all people who take trains are socially challenged individuals bordering on the edge of moronic behaviour.

i totally absolutely CANNOT stand it when those couples happily hug and whisper sweet nothings into each other's ears, while for some bizzare reason are entirely oblivious to the fact that they are blocking the entrance into the train! how they manage that? they lean against the glass panel next to the seats.

Irritating.

anyhow, whilst i was moving ever so slowly down the escalator, the ridiculous amount of free time i have now got me thinking.

you know, whenever a singaporean youth has free time, the first thing he would do is to scan through his "to-do" list in his brain. and in a singapore youth's brain, the only things in the "to-do" list of most singaporean youths is,

1. I got to study!!!!

2. I got to play game!!!!

3. I got to..... just stooone!!!!

and that is mostly it. the other insipid things of life obviously creeps into the list every now and then... but nevertheless, the very first thing is to STUDY.

and now that i just got over my A levels, i have no studying to speak of, or rather, think of. so now, whenever i have free time, i have this nagging sense that something is not done.

something is not complete.

and that something is my studies.

yet the irony is that i got nothing more to study until NS is over. ah... that is what 12 years of non-stop studying does to your brain. or the singaporean brain at least.

so yes. until now im trying to get that instinct out of my system, although i must admit the feeling that i got nothing to study is really quite foreign.

AND NOW...

National Service is coming in two weeks and four days. then i will be whisked away from civilization and locked away with the ocean as my bars and an island as my cell with shrubs and trees as my *insert object*.

yes yes. all this talk about NS is making you bored.

anyways, after i got my new internet tracker on my blog, i realised i have american readers! HA.

of course not.. i bet they are just passing by... its cool to have a non-existent fan base! :D

C.K blogged at 4:53 AM