(Isaiah 43:2)

the past five days of national service was tiring.

the first 2 days was utter misery for me.

but God became so real. And in doing so he fulfilled what i prophesied to myself one sunday when i was in church.

on the 3rd day, in the midst of a lecture, while i was at my lowest point, God took me and restored me. and somehow, my spirit was lifted up, and all the worries and burdens and tiredness were taken, and i felt renewed, and refreshed.

God you are AWESOME.

although there is some insecurity now about how i will go through with the physical training, i know God is always there, never far, and im never alone.

i could still remember, when i was walking alone towards the group of all the other new recruits, as my parents headed off to the ferry. I was all alone, yet in my heart and soul i knew that Jesus was walking with me. and He still does, every step of the way, giving me strength to do the things i never thought i could do, healing me in the times of desperation, and giving me rest in all circumstances.

I want to be the light in the darkness. I want to be set apart in a place that resigns itself to being lost. i want to be His sword and light. and in doing so, that others may see that Jesus lives in me and i in Him.

and i thank God for every moment that He is with me.

no words can express the love i have for Him.

no words can express the immense gratitude that i have for Him, to hold me when i want to fall in the army.

Jesus is beyond words. and now i know, that only by gazing upon His face, that you know what it is like to be a Child of God.

I never thought, in my life that i would be a Christian. i used to think it was a religion of lies. but now its no longer a religion to me. its not a belief. its not a dream. its not a hypocrisy. its not a fantasy.