Tuesday, January 02, 2007 - 2007. : Thats it.

2006's gone, just like that.

Nothing so much as a snap of a finger or a tap with your right foot. Or that momentary whiff of fragrance from a flower freshly bloomed. Or the ephemeral memory of yet another controversial politician.

Its so ironic AND sad, that one can desire so much for one year to past, yet hold on so fervently to that one year of his life, lest it be a fleeting moment. And it is in that very fleeting moment of a year, one discovers and comes face to face with his mortality.

Yes people - one year isn't THAT long. One year is very short indeed.

After these 19 years of living and walking around this little planet that's blasting itself to bits, you really can't help but concur that life is indeed like a flower in the fields. Blooming today, only to wither the next.

It's funny to think that as teenagers, we imagine that we can rule the world, that we can live forever and the whole planet is our oyster and it had better darn well fit our expectations. And it's this planet that confronts us with our mortality and the fact that we DON'T live forever and in fact, every year older means every year closer to dying. And its just like that, that my youth just skipped by me. Like, what the hell. You mean it's gone??!? Those years of emotional outbursts and experimentation and unadulterated adventure coupled with a little bit of puppy love??? But no, that's not my adolescence. Mine was more subdued, and steeped a lil' more in things that most would shun. But that's the past.

I'm 20 this year. Well not NOW as of yet, but i consider myself 20. There goes my teenager status. But I'm not yet an adult. It's like, not here, yet not there. You're expected to act like an adult, yet you're not in a position to make any desicions that adults are able to. What a saaad predicament.

But i guess there's no point emo-ing about stuff like this. It's time to get my life back in order and meet up with that someone whom I have been placing on the shelf for the longest time. What a way to start the new year.

C.K blogged at 5:36 AM