Thursday, October 18, 2007 - pool - swimming with balls! : ord is in less than a week and i am so totally unfazed by it.

put me in a bunk in Tekong now and the recruits will probably rend me to pieces and stew me body for a meal. that's what happens when you get a posting that allows you to stay out - the value of ord gets diluted quite a bit. but what the heck, at least i don't have to put up with really random crap coming out of a certain individual's orifice and scream bloody blue murder over ridiculous and poorly thought-out instructions.

in any case, my ord farewell speech/essay/story will be up soon. in the mean time, i'll probably rave on about my new hobby.

POOL.

let's just say i've always had an interest in pool, except i never really acted on it. quite a pity if you ask me. so right now, i'm going to have to make up for all those years. i desperately need more practice. in fact, i'm contemplating heading to pool saloons and practicing by myself. but the secondary school examinations are just over, that means lots of juvenile delinquents are going to flood the pool saloons. annoying.

in a bid to get myself to really get serious with the sport of pool, i got meself a pool cue and case, with compliments from fabby giving me his old cue as a break cue. thanks dude :]

here's the cue i got from The Cue Factor at Pool Junction from their boss, Adrian.




it's a lovely Joss cue - traditional design and superb playability. the price is lovely too. 650 bucks. plus a cue case that's a replica of one that is custom made by Jack Justis (his custom made cases go into the thousand bucks each), which cost me 289 bucks. that's a totally of bout 930. almost 1K on this sport. i better make it count. hopefully i can get into the ranks of SMU's pool club. and maybe even play competitive!! but for now, it's a loooot of practice waiting for me.


C.K blogged at 9:12 PM

Monday, September 03, 2007 - dota is no longer fun. : gone were the days when one can play dota and be mildly entertained by battlenet players.

gone were the days when one can exercise a bit of common sense and anticipation to discern where missing enemy players are.

and gone are the days where dota players on the battlenet are older folk, like 16 and above.

today, we have a host of 12-15 year old 'lil kids of yonderland who swarm battlenet in droves and really take the fun out of public dota games. they are all unthinking, mindless drones who take the words of their "pro" friends (read: pro = professional - just a figurative expression) sooo seriously that they follow their tactics wholesale. and these "pro" people got their tactics from where? other "pro" friends la.

honestly, most of the tactics don't even make sense. it's really just mindlessly following what the rest are doing.

"WTH??? a guinsoo on a bounty hunter??? NOOB."

and then they start expounding the uber pro items that bounty hunter should get... some far-fetched item like butterfly etc etc. and then when you actually play with them with your team who knows exactly what they are doing, they get their asses whipped hard. then guess what? they accuse you of maphack (read: a form of hacking that allows you to see the entire map which is cheating).

enemy heroes that go missing for dunno how many minutes and they expect us to stay farrr down the lane away from our defences like some dork who can't anticipate that something is fishy.

decision making for them is really almost non-existent. they all conform to a set of rules.


CANNOT CHIONG PAST THE TOWER NO MATTER WHAT!!!

EVEN IF YOU GOT 3 OF YOUR TEAMMATES PRESENT!!!


and then my team and i sees a guy standing quite serenely by the tower despite the fact that we are able to stun him from quite far away. and then he dies when we all chiong right in and slaugther him, before beating a hasty retreat.

the bugger didn't even know what hit him.

players nowadays don't analyse the game at all. it's just a set of rules, what their perceived to be "pro" friends say and what they see other people do, even thought the situation is never the same.

bah. dota is becoming a sad game to play. nowadays even though my team and i do play a few public games to get some cheap thrill out of killing them so easily, it's getting dry and boring.

i need new games!!!!



***for the unintiated few, the above would be totally alien to you. so the post starts from here. Ha Ha Ha.***



Oh i do enjoy days like these. the entire office was empty 'cus all regulars had to get their asses to the army open house. ill bet down to my last penny that no one stayed beyond 5pm. i mean, the exhibition might interest and wow the public who hasn't been in touch with the SAF for years, but for people like us, its really a "been there, done that" kinda thing. i mean we WORKED on those "hi-tech" stuff.

but of 'cus, mondays somehow get to inject a 'lil bit of shit into the rest of your week.

right now, a certain individual has decided to add a bit of extra stuff to my job scope. ok not a bit. a whole chunk load of stuff actually. in fact, this hunk of junk crap he just blew out of his cannon is enough as a full fledged job. maybe i'm exaggerating but it's close la.

frankly, i don't think i'm even able to settle into this new pile of sai. i'm going to flush this stupid organization out of my system in like, a 'lil over 2 months. the only concern i have is my understudy (who i probably will never see) whose going to take over my job. if he is going to come in as a website idiot like me when i arrived at my current unit, then i say he's better off fending for his life in the Sahara.

ah well. of course you can't expect me to clean up everything before i leave. in fact, i intend to hide a large amount of shit from the website and make it look ok on the outside. but then, once im gone, all the shit will come back in the form of one large bitch and BITE THE ASSHOLE IN THE ASS. =D what a considerate thought. *pat pat*

thank goodness though, that this month is speeding up, 'cus the month of august was one slooow one. really, time seemed to dilate back then. i looked at my handphone's calender and realised that august had 5 weeks! like, omg! thankfully this month is back to normal with 4 weeks. i would expect this month to be completely smoooth sailing and totally laid back, with the exception of the amount of crap generating daily from the website which probably matches the height of Everest.

for the first time EVERRR, i am ACTUALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO GUARD DUTY!!!!


I HAVE LOST MY MIIINNNDDDD!!!!
*oozes drool from corner of mouth*


heh heh. not really la. it's just that my guard duty is on the 22nd of september, that means, i'm thaaat much closer to my ORD. can you imagine? you wake up to a beautiful sunday, albeit in camp, on a weekend (-_-), and realize - it's just one week more to october... which is one month away from ORD... Ha Ha.

and of course, the feeling of liberation from The Stupid Organization is one that i don't really understand now, but soon. in fact, this friday, one of my colleagues is going to return to the real world of civilization.

soooon... sooon i will livvvee agaaaain......

during the month of august, i was really anguishing over how time is dilating as my ORD is approaching, until i remembered this song.




C.K blogged at 4:09 AM

Thursday, August 30, 2007 - don't know and don't really give a damn! : i have come to a point in my ns, where i really, really, really don't give a damn.

it's really one of those times where you don't care bout what others say and do, and you don't have any qualms just siam-ing every damn thing. it's really a point where you just don't care.

my understudy is not coming anytime soon honestly and that means i probably will NOT have the chance to take any offs (and even then, a certain individual in my office is going to make things exceptionally hard for me).

and so this below chunk of text is dedicated specially to YOU! in fact, i might just send this to YOU.



Dear *** ***,

For all of your qualifications and achievements, you are truly one ASSED boss. Frankly, I sincerely and wholeheartedly believe that I can be a better boss than you. You are so shortsighted and egotistic that you failed to take a leaf out of your upper study's book.

Your concern is with yourself and your own image. Yet it's so terribly ironic that your conduct and demeanour is so blindingly obvious to all those around you. But you, so unfeeling and incapable of discernment, walk around and initiate in small talk and banter with other nsfs as if you are on amiable terms with them; assuming that they are completely and totally sold to your "sweet" image.

You are such a fool.

You are not just a fool, but an infinitely self-absorbed one. From the day you came into the office, your facade held up like a tracing paper in the face of a storm. I saw you for who you truly were. But i am a giver of second chances. I gave you the chance to prove to me that i was wrong about you, that my first impression of you was erroneous. I will never forget that day when you left me alone on Tekong in the midst of another unit's training and accusing me of irresponsibility when the onus was not on ME to get it right.

Your emotional quotient is laughable. You are truly socially challenged and insipid in your thoughts. But then again, maybe I ought to thank you, because I have learnt so much from you - that you are everything a boss should NOT be. You disgust me with your attitudes. You are, in all honestly, an ankle deep poseur.

The rank that you wear now on your shoulders, was and still is being built upon the back of nsfs.

The day will come when you trip over your own ego and when that day comes, I don't think you will ever realize it, because your nose is always up there in the skies. I wish every success to your upper study, because he is deserving of it. I am not comparing him to you because he was an exceptional boss, but because he is what a boss SHOULD BE.



now i had to let that out. a lil more than 2 more months. I have waited over a year and half for the day when i will walk out of this disappointing organization. 2 more months is nothing. deny me all you want. it is regardless, since i will leave. you however, can rot in that hole. good riddance.

C.K blogged at 12:46 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007 - yayness! : I am now approaching the point in my NS life where i heck care anything. it's the ORD mood.

ooohh yess yes yessssss..... i've waited a grand total of 1 year 8 months and XX no. of days for this moment. of which i'm still not satisfied as to how quickly time is passing till i get to meet my dearest pink IC. yessss... pink never looked so darn HOT in my hands.

and to think that the past 1 year and 8 months just zipped past me like -that-. but that's nostalgia for another post for another day. right now, i'm crossing my fingers and toes and hoping i don't get dumped with a large lump of crap work close to my ORD date of Nov 4. as such, i have been taking measures to assure the rest that i have evolved into this unreliable hunk of junk in a last ditch effort to siam all semblance of work. if these measures fail, there's always leave and off to clear! but i honestly doubt the latter will be coming in large or even moderate quantities for reasons i shall not state to preserve my life.

to mark my moving on from army, i shall now talk about life AFTER NS. i'm enrolling with SMU Accountancy! swwweeettt man. but i'm bothered bout sleeping in class, cus i have the habit of dozing off when i don't understand a particular lesson. : /

a terrible habit i know, but i can't seem to find my "Stay Awake" switch. for me, if my attention is not aroused, i just disappear. must shake off this habit, or else my Cum Laude degree is not happening.

another thingy thats bothering me is the SMU gym. currently i'm with Tamp Safra gym, and i kinda hate the idea of moving over to SMU gym (which is free while at Safra i got to pay) and losing all my friends over at Safra. Aiyah but still far lah. i'll be gymming at Safra all the way till i matriculate at SMU in August next year anyways.

before that, i need to find a job!! yes yes i intend to change my ancient computer (its still running on an archaic AGP system -_- ) but to do that, i need at least $1500. and so, my very dream-like aims include a job that pays close to a thousand (or more) and the hours are like standard working hours, from 8-6 or soooomething like that. ambitious no? or maybe ill just give tuition. =D sigh. but for now i need to ORD first. i'm still counting down...

C.K blogged at 9:13 PM

Monday, June 25, 2007 - : Z.O.M.G.

it has been -ever- since I last updated. Well i'm sorry but i'm getting exceedingly laaaaazy. I think all my previous readers (if i had anyone to start with) who were mildly fascinated with my inane life probably died a natural death waiting for my next update.

Anyhow, life has been crappy ok so far. this month has been filled with guard duty, going outfield for a certain individual whom i don't really like AND ferrying back and forth from the edge of Tampines and Pasir Ris to the La La Land of Woodlands.

I mean honestly, anywhere out of the east is alien to me. I cannot for the life of me imagine how people can SURVIVE living in a place that has HDBs, fields, fields, construction sites, construction sites and, well, construction sites. and i also cannot fathom why MINDEF imposes a no-more-than-50km/h-road-speed-rule on all MINDEF vehicles. Imagine getting to Jurong from Tampines on one of these shits. i've never seen a vehicle being overtaken so many times.

but i digress. it's just about 4 more months till i ORD and start living again. some of me friends say its the "Beginning of the End". i on the otherhand, say it's "The End of the Beginning" - the beginning of my NS life. yes yes i knooow. NSFs usually can't talk about any much other stuff other than NS, simply because the meaning of our lives have pretty much been compressed to the size of a unassuming pea.

but less insignificant matters aside...

i'm working on a new blogskin that i created from scratch, but being the HTML and cyber idiot that i unashamedly am, it's still a little bit more before i can get it running. work has been an a-hole as of late, with me being tasked to do stuff which is none of my business. it's astounding how some people can be so shameless and blatantly task others to do the job that THEIR OWN SURBODINATES are suppose to do. as such, i'm being torn away from my maiden blogskin.

in anycase, it should be up and running before the end of the year. wow whee! isn't that exciting! XD

C.K blogged at 6:15 AM

Sunday, May 27, 2007 - : I wish for a lot of things.

I wish I can fly.

I wish I can sing on the streets and not give a damn about what others might say.

I wish I can go up to someone I hate and screw him inside out.

I wish I can live a life of dreams.

I wish I can live in a world with no rules.

I wish I can do what I want, when I want.

I wish there was no such thing as wrong.

I wish there is no Heaven or Hell.

I wish for all the good things in life to touch me just once.

I wish for gifts to fall on my lap.

I wish I wasn’t disappointed as much as I am right now.

I wish I was closer to the people I love.

I wish I even knew and understand what it means to truly love.

I wish I could walk away from things I don’t want a part in.

I wish I can have everything sailing smooth and not need crap to remind me of good times.

I wish someone will read this post and talk to me and hear me rant.

I wish I could just cry my heart out and scream at the top of my lungs.

I wish I could tear myself open with no fear of being betrayed.

I wish I could smile.




But this is the real world you see. One wonders why after one tries so darn hard and falls flat on his face, why that one doesn’t just give up and fade away. One wonders why there is an afterlife; that one needs to worry about after a life so long yet so short. One wonders why one cannot live a life that one truly would like to live with no fear of its consequences or aftermaths. One wonders why there is such a thing as Judgment.

One wonders why the heart is so unfathomable. One wonders why the very thing that gives one the strength in the face of all adversity, could crumble so easily in the presence of disappointment. One wonders why the price of giving up is so high.

It’s so pathetic to be like this. And this person knows it. And this person wishes for all that is so bleak to just dissolve away. But yet here they are. Plain in his sight, unrelenting, tenacious, stubborn, parasitic and vice-like. Was this how Vincent van Gogh felt?

One wonders and wishes.

C.K blogged at 7:49 AM

Thursday, January 11, 2007 - beautiful is forever. :

How on earth, can anything so beautiful be created?

The sheer ingenuity of it all.

iPod + Broadband internet browsing + Camera + Phone.

Makes you wonder if the designers and people who conceived of this are aliens.

I can imagine the look on the faces of the CEOs of major phone compeititors when they saw the iPhone revealed.

C.K blogged at 3:41 AM